Lately my struggle has been doing things on my own will. In a month or so I will be giving birth to my son. Because of this I feel I have very little time left to get things together. Matt and I just did a big move to a new apartment and things are still not all in order. There are many worries that I struggle with throughout the week. I worry about if I’m going to have enough strength to finish unpacking and organizing my house. I worry about if I’m going to have a healthy labor and have my newborn son stay safe. I get in these stages where I am strong and stable one minute and then one event can happen to me and I’m unraveled and in a state of panic.